Banbury Rambles.

As nice as it has been being back home in Shenny and at my Dads in Banbury - yes, I said it, nice being in Banbury, I must be mad, but if I am with my Dad, I don't care where I am.

But at the same time, I am missing Lincoln loads, for many reasons. For starters, I came home to find my mum had perchased two new additions to the family. Granville and Dillon. A cockateil and budgie, and they are an absolute nightmare. Of course, I knew my mother had already got them before I came home for the Easter holidays, she was the one who informed me that I would be great at training them to be more tame. But seriously, I've never had such a difficult time!

For starters, Granville, the main birdie I am training, it took me a couple of days to get used to the fact that he bites, but not only that, that his bites don't actually hurt. After that, I keep giving him my finger to step onto, but he keeps running away from me! Even when I try just to stroke him, he runs away. I swear, it is impossible to train him! The budgie is even worse, you can't even get close, he is even too timid to bite.

Next big annoyance since being back home is the incredible difficulty I've had getting access to the internet. My neighbour normally allows me access through my wall, but I can't get any signal due to his progress in renivating his house. My mum has no internet, and the internet at my grandparents is kaput. The only time I can get onto the internet is when I am at my Dads, like now. Even then, the internet is dicey. So thats one of my main reasons for missing Lincoln, because of how amazingly tollerent my internet is, and how I don't get woken up by my mum every morning instead of letting my lie in just cuz she has to go to work and wants me to do a ton of housework, which is fair enough as I am staying rent free, but at least give me lie ins while I still can!

I am also getting stressed at how close end of uni year it is getting. I have tons of assignments and live assessments to prepare for, which I know I can get done, but end of year means summer, and I don't want there to be a summer, I want to skip to September so I can start third year, even though it is scaring me that this time next year I will be about graduating around about now. Scary thought.

Other things are on my mind too. Like my Doctor [code word btw, if you are my close friend you'd know who I meant). I miss him terribly, and as much as I love him, I hate him too, hate what he has done to me, and wish I didn't feel this way anymore, because I am sick of it, and seeing things everyday that I'd rather not doesn't help. What is worse, that if the situation ever arose that could go the way I would want, I'd have to refuse, because I don't want to settle for being picked second best, and it pains me that I think this way, yet, I know there is some sense to it, and feel it is the right way to go about things. Ugh, why does life have to be so complicated?

What I have enjoyed so far of being back home is the dog walking in the hot weather, being in town browsing the shops and bumping into old friends that I had planned on having big catch ups on. Its been nice catching up with my family too, and finally getting access to the internet, even if it doesn't always work and I can't get my youtube videos uploaded. But oh well, I guess I'll have to cope.

Something else that hasn't gone to plan is trying to loose weight over the Easter holidays. I was planning on being really good and hope to shift some for when I go back to Lincoln, but no luck. Summer I plan big time to get fit for when I start third year, maybe then some nice guys will actually NOTICE me, as not much of that seems to be going on now for some reason I cannot decifer. Anyway, am out as it is quite late now, and I am quite tired. Night folks!