Poem.... :S It's crap.

Wrote this poem while at work today...

I woke up this morning very stressed,
It's clear to anyone that I'm not impressed,
I could not sleep last night.
It's pissing me off to the point
Where I could cry.
It's becoming more and more of a problem.
An Insomniac's Nightmare.
I now see sleep as a luxury to be fair.
Oh, how I crave sleep where dreams unfold...
Where adventures beyond reality to behold...
How I hope I might sleep tonight,
Although that's as likely
As pokemon that won't fight.

Real Bad Luck Friday 13th

It's really late and I have work in the morning at 11, and I don't finish til six. But I really don't care. Hey. That's what pro plus is for, right?

I used to scoff at the idea of Friday the 13th being a day of bad luck. But after today, I've definately changed my mind.

Firstly, my morning dream was about someone trying to try and murder me. In fact, to be more specific, it was Logan's dad in 'Veronic Mars' that was trying to kill me. I'm not really sure why. But there you go. I woke up and realised I wasn't dead. So maybe I was lucky in that way. I mean, imagine waking up dead.

The next thing that went wrong was waking up and realising how late it was. Half 10. I was meeting a member of my single camera group later that day, at half one, in our uni pub called 'The Shed'. Just for a few drinks and a gossip before our Horror and Fantasy lecture. We were both quite excited as we had some college students auditioning for some parts we had on offer for our single camera production of Harvey Dwaynne, a detective set in his 50s ways, but living in present day. Myself and my group are really excited about this production. We've yet to come up with a name for our production. You can visit our blog if you are interested to find out more. Just click Dirty Shed Productions and it will take you there.

Ok, next bad thing that happened today....probably was taking a motivational group email the wrong way. Made me feel like I hadn't been putting as much effort into a group thing when I had. Luckily I got that straightened out though.

Then after that, after nipping to the Spa shop for a drink and some ciggs, I realised that the ten pounds cash back I asked for from The Shed, I did not recive. Humph. So I have no idea if I lost it, or forgot to retrieve it from the bar tender. So now I'm ten quid short. Not good when you have less then 20 quid to live on before the 23rd of November, when I get paid. I suppose I can always go to student services in desperate need when I do run out of money.

The next bad thing - I find out majority of house mates and friends have been out at the Glass House tonight, and didn't think to invite me. Friends who I haven't seen in a while, and the pub is only a two minute walk away from uni. Nothing but not recieveing a text would stop me attending. Ok, I'mm skint, but I don't have to drink. I'd just go to socialize. As I haven't properly in a while.

Okay, the next bad luck thing is kinda embarrasing. I went downstairs to laundry room to do my laundry, and after making a couple of trips to and fro from flat to laundry room, I didn't notice that my keys went in with the laundry, to let after pressing the 'colours' button, activating the washing machine beyond the point of being able to stop it and open it. I had to go see the security staff to give me some temporary keys until my washing was done. Bare in mind, this is at like 2am, and I have work at 11am. So the early bedtime went out the window. It's twenty past 3 in the morning as I write this. I should go to bed, but I am too stupid to go.

And on top of all that, I see Kristina (if you're reading this, you may know her as italktosnakes) on twitter keep tweeting about this thing called 'omedgle' all day, and curious to know what it was, I decided to check it out. So I did. Apparently it's this chat thing where you go and chat to a random stranger. First guy I talk to, after he says hi, and I say hi, he asks 'asl?'. I didn't know what that was at first, but vaguely remember seeing it somewhere before. Apparently it means age, sex, location. So immediately after I put 20, female, England, he disconnected the chat. How rhude!!!

Anyway, that's all of the bad luck stuff. Oh, I forgot I tried to reply on facebook to a group facebook message on my phone, and after replying a long message, my phone turned itself off - twice this happened, and I gave up.

So yeah, I hope Saturday to be a better day. Maybe even a lucky day to make up for this one. We'll see.

Night for now.

Rants to Vent

Ugh, having such a frustrating day, and I'm not really sure why. It's all down to a supposed best friend, and I probably really shouldn't be made about it, but I always am in a funny mood.

Basically, the gist is, I created a little pet nickname for him last year. Ja-Lo, cuz he is quite a kamp guy, my mate Jason. As I know back at home he sometimes got called Ja-Fo back at home, I decided more like Ja-Lo, similar to the singer JLo, but my own way of spelling it. Basically, I'm calling him a girl, but NOT the real JLo. Ok, he says he didn't like the nickname when it first came about, but it's just one of those things that you accept that a friend does, right? Like when Dr Cox calls JD girls names.

A year later, and Ja-Lo and all his friends are sure that a girl called Kate started the nickname that never caught on. Just because she continued to call him the name after I invented it. Which she didn't. I don't even often call Jase 'Ja-Lo'. I often forget. In fact, I only ever call him Ja-Lo on my phone, in which his number is saved under, so I don't get what all the fuss is about. Just because 'brownbear' 'caught on' amongst the rest of his friends because my nickname for him is 'stupid' and 'doesn't make sense'. It's not even the right nickname! The nickname was taken from scrubs, and it's actually CHOCOLATE bear, not brown bear. But of course, he only likes it for the racial humor.

Also, aparently, my spelling is unacceptable. Oh, and these are the comments from when he put up a facebook status saying "bout time I added Brownbear to my name", when I replied "you'll always be Ja-Lo to me" these were the responses from supposed friends:

Jason: spelt J.LO and its the worst nickname in the world it just doesnt make sense and is crap hence why it didn;t catch on... you douche! It never caught on just you and kate... DOES NOT COUNT... and im guessing they dont teach you how to spell?

James: "Ja-Lo" would be pronounced "Jah-Loh" and, therefore, sound nothing like the Jay-Loh" what you're aiming for.

Not only did it not catch on; your phoenetics are lacking at best.

So thanks, supposed best friend of mine, for making me feel so small, insignificant and retarded.

I guess I just hate being ganged up on. I dunno. I can't explain my frustration and ARRRGH and the need to punch things. I shouldn't take it all so seriously. Maybe cuz it's only a name and they are making a big fuss about it. I've been called far worse nicknames by my friends. Can't see why they can''t get over such a pathetic little thing to fuss over.

Rant over. Ended up finally replying after deciding to let them sulk "haha can't believe what a fuss has been made over such a silly insignificant little thing. Quite pathetic really."

BBC Scriptwriting Talent Competition

I've just updated my uni media blog for first time in MONTHS. In fact, it maybe my first ever post - huuray!

Follow following link to get to my uni blog so you can read more about the BBC Scriptwriting Talent Competition and my interest in it as well as possible involvement.

BBC SCRIPTWRING TALENT COMPETITION

Ferrero Rocher Challenge

In celebration of my birthday, I decided to take up the recent raging world record challenging of eating as many ferrero rochers as possible, with the current record being 7, and the guy whom took up the challenge in this year's 'Britain's Got Talent' got up to 4, and me being cocky thought it would be easy to get past 7 of these nutty chocs, certainly 4. So I streamed the challenge live, and here it is:



Lol, this is my first attempt, and I plan to try again later. People are right, this is a lot harder then it looks!

The Three J's and What to do when your Friends Break Up.

Hi.

Myy blog posting time might beg to differ at the time that I am writing/posting this blog, as I live in England, and blogspot tend to run on American time, which, to be honest, I might as well be American with how my biological clock works. It is 02:25am as I am writing this, and I am due to be up at 04:30/05:00am as I have a fully planned weekend ahead of work experience, the only problem is that despite being very aware of the time, I can't seem to be able to sleep. This makes me sad, because I know how busy I will be tomorrow, and I will be exhausted, as well as knowing I have two other early morning starts to look forward too! I am hoping by writing this blog that I will get tired enough to fall asleep.

Anyway, a little update of something that happened a few weekends ago. Which, conviently, I was away from Lincoln on a similar work experience placement. During which, the drama was mad back at home. My housemates, whom for discretion, I shall call them Joe, Jan and Jack.

Anyway, it all started when Jack wrote a status that was aimed at Joe and Jan, whom are in a committed relationship. The status was about how Jack was upset/angry and felt that Joe and Jan had lied to Jack, namecalling them and accusing them of being 'lying snakes'. After learning what stemed the dispute, it was all to do with invites. Jack was angry/upset because Joe and Jan hadn't invited Jack to a day out at the park when it was really sunny, and the BBQ that had been arranged to have at the house in which we all live in. Me (Fal), Joe, Jan and Jack. Invited to the Park and BBQ, which I may point out were seperate events, were old flatmates from the previous year Sarah and Adrian I shall call them. Well, myself, Joe, Jan and Jack lived with Sarah the previous year in off campus halls of our university, and Adrian lived in the flat above ours.

So yes, back on topic. Myself, Joe, Jan, Sarah and Adrian all decided spur of the moment - a spontaneous thought, to go to the park on one occasion, on the day of said event because it was hot and sunny, and as we were all free for that day, it would be nice to do something to enjoy the sun. So we arranged to go to the park! Something that unfortunately Jack wasn't around at the time to invite. I had already noted he had left the house early that day, so assumed he was either at uni all day, or had plans. Ok, in his defence, we could have given him a text I suppose, but none of us expected him to get upset about it, afterall, it wasn't an invitation event. There were no facebook event set up with a guest list, nor did we send out handwritten invitation with strick instant RSPV response cards. It was just a whoever was around, lets go to the park! Type of thing. Anyway, it was a good day out for all whom went.

The next event was a BBQ at my house. I knew nothing about the BBQ until I noticed nibbles being layed out on the table, I asked Joe and Jan what they were upto, if they had people coming over, and they said yeah, Sarah and Adrian were coming over for a mini BBQ, and asked if I cared to join? I accepted. Jack was in his room, and his girlfriend arrived, and they both went up to their rooms for a while. Shortly after, Sarah and Adrian arrived and we all settled in the living room, and got the BBQ outside working. Moments later, we heard a very loud and disturbing slam of the front door go as Jack and his girlfriend vacated the house, making the whole house shake. This is normally a trait of mine that I do when I am quite pissed off about something, so I immediately knew something had pissed Jack off, everyone else, however, wavered their hands, and insisted it must be the wind, as it was particuarly windy that day.

If I had known any hint of what Jack was mad about, I would have gone after him, and demanded to know what his behaviour was about, but I shrugged the thought off and carried on with the BBQ. I wanted to do something fun before going off for my photography work experience the next day.

So yes, these were the events that Jack got upset about. No invitation. Which, is quite silly in heinsight, as for one, he isn't that keen on Joe and Jan in the first place, so I don't see what all the fuss is about, he avoids them whenever possible. I dunno, maybe he just wanted to make a fuss because he could. Maybe he was feeling too sensitive at the time, as I know he can be at times. I know he has exams to be stressed about too, which was why he wasn't invited to the BBQ, because it was on a Friday, and I knew he had an exam on the Monday, so I presumed he would want to use the time to revise. Reason for this was that last year he was willing to sacrifice missing my Birthday for two days of revision before his exam which was two days after my brithday, so therefore, you would assume he would be doing the same for a BBQ, which on a scale of significance, is no-where near the same importance of attending a friends birthday. Of course, after much nagging, I did get him to come to my birthday last year, but thats not the point, hehe.

Anyway, so the next day, the Saturday, the day I left for Yorkshire for my work experience, the facebook status transpired, and all hell broke loose, leading to big house divide up. Joe and Jan now not speaking or even achknowledging Jack's existance, and vice versa. I only found out about the whole drama when I got back that Sunday, and after carefully listening to both sides, I tried my best not to be more biased to one side more then the other, although I do have stronger sideing oppinions towards one side then the other, I could never admit to either party, as it would be unfair as they are all my friends. I do feel partly at fault somehow, and tried to give both parties reasonable oppinions, but one is more stubborn then the other, and just admits to little fault.

Anyway, I was wondering if anyone who might by chance read this post comment back, tell me what you think, and if you have been in similar situations, or felt caught in the middle of your friends disputes??

Almost Third Year Student!!

It's been a very full-filling year, my second year at university. A lot has gone on, I know I've definately put more effort into this one in terms of my work ect, and now third year awaits me. Graduating year. This time next year I will be finishing University for good. This time next year I will be doing my best to search for a job. Scary stuff. Student loans gone (well, 'cept for paying my loan back!), mortages, bills etc here I come! Argh, why can't I be a student forever? LOL.

I am going back to my hometown at the weekend - where I will be out of internet! Argh! So don't know how I am going to cope with that! I am going to have to beg my mum to get internet! At the moment though, I seem to be doing my best to avoid packing my room, ready to be picked up at the weekend. My room is a tip and I need a big sort out in crap I don't need! I have to decide what stuff to keep in Lincoln and what stuff to take back home, just too much to do in the space of a few days!

This weekend just gone, I was in Yorkshire on a photography work experience, taking photos of Landrovers who were on a off-road experience, and I would take photos of them splashing into mud, it was great fun, I had some photos on my digital camera which I was going to put up on here, but unfortunately on a birthday night out with one of my best friends, I re-formatted my camera, not realising that it deletes my photos in the process! Which is really frustrating as I had some nice photos with my dad on a day out in Skegness too! Never mind....I'll get hold of copies of my work somehow.

Then there is my youtube work - I am so behind, and I know there is no-way I am going to get majority of what I want done, done by the time I have no access to internet. The second part of my 'Deception' video, completing my John Locke 'omg I can't believe it' as well as other projects I've yet to start.

I don't start third year to the end of September, so I have a long summer ahead, and a couple of things in this summer to look forward to. Midnight walk in June, LOST convention in August and a holiday in the Lake District early September. In between all these events I need to find paid work and plenty of work experience to contribute to my experienced in the media as well as looking flashy on my CV.

Next year at university I am studying single camera, so hopefully this means I can display more regular work I do at uni online on youtube. If my vids are good enough! Hehe.

Fal out xx

Projects & Stuff

Wow, been a while since I've been on here, but I've had much difficulty trying to sign back on with forgetfulness of login details and what-not.

Anywho, much has been going on! Second year of uni is very demmanding with work load and I've been working very hard to achieve good grades this year - and actually been sucessful! Yay!

Anyway, busy busy busy! With my love for youtube and vidding, I've been busy making vids and uploading them. Some fanvids of Doctor Who, LOST and Torchwood. Check them out and click on my youtube link in the sidebar which will take you to my account. There are also some of my vlogs there too if you care to check them out :) More projects on the way too!

Also, new aim. To post up on here more frequently.

Am working on a new story. It's also kinda related to real life events. It's a love story, and as I write each chapter, I'll be posting it on my live journal, so check it out!

My Best Friends Birthday

It is my best friends birthday. Officially today. But I was meant to write this earlier, cept I couldn't get logged on and I was busy most of the day.



So what have I planned for his eternal sunshine of the spotless mind? A birthday cake and a present, big present which I've arranged to go fifths on.



The birthday cake is amazing. See, he has this crazy obession with the Dark Knight - in particular the Joker. So I made him a chocolate cake, and covered the top with icing before drawing the Joker's face on it. Had to take some pictures before it got demolished too. If you are reading this, you'll have to let me know what you think.



I've also yet to make the birthday video. Don't know what song to put with it though. He is obessesed with this Paramore song at the moment. "Misery Buisness" but I don't think that is the direction to go in. Need something birthday-ish. I'll work it out sooner or later and upload.

Anywho, gotta go!

Zombie

I am addicted to that song by the Cranberries atm. Really good vid on youtube by nolaespoir, being a fellow fan vidder (although only done one DW one, working on two simultaneously currently however) with my LOST and Doctor Who vids which you should check out on my channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/Tarka98

But yeah, before you do that, Doctor Who fans, check out this vid, it made me cry!

"Zombie Doctor Who" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TPUJZtZdGz0

Also, I got a haircut, and while, lovely for summer, and lifted a bit of weight off my poor head, it's too short! Waaah!

See ya in another life brother,

fal